Not So Random Thought

Not So Random Thought
 $$$$$$$$$ yes that one its hard dealing with the fact that all it takes is $$$$$$ and I could fix the things about my body that literally cause me pain every day of my life. And truth be told there is nothing I wouldn't do for enough money for some things its not so much but then others its a lot a whole lot of money.
I save & save and still my goals are so far out of reach its hard to stay positive & some day's I fail miserably at that.
I know there are others with problems & issues out there but will it ever be my turn i feel I've paid plenty of dues in my 46+ years as a teenager I volunteered hundreds of hours in the summer & I've served my country as a US Marine (Granted it was a attempt to fight my true nature but got a honorable discharge) donated to charity both money & time I worked for 12+ years with hospice & even in the alternative community of Leather & BDSM it would be hard to find a group or contest that hasn't been at least given donations of our Toy's for fund raisers .

All that said im just in the will it ever be my turn mood !!!!!