Why do I keep trying I so hate that I feel this way & I just keep putting on a smile for the world. Some days its really hard not to just scream. I see couples together the guy is so proud to have such a pretty women & then their are so many pretty girls and the attention they get and all I can think is I will never have that chance. I know some people think that's silly but I have that thought more & more. I'm so tired of telling myself some day but @ this point I will never get to be the young pretty girl and that well for the lack of a better term pisses me off!!!!!!!! so @ 46 im still trying to achieve that which seams will never happen for me.The worst part of it is for $$,$$$ it could be fixed but as im one of the have knot's such is life. So I say it just sucks!!!!!!
but that said I will keep trying as the alternative well its just not a option.
im quickly developing a just fuck it attitude with a bit of why give a shit thrown in to boot if I have to be stuck like this i sure as hell don't have to be pleasant all the damn time. its just so fucking hard and im tierd of weighting my turn as it looks like its not comeing any time soon.
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