just doing my thing

ok I've been out in the shop a lot as we are getting ready for DomCon LA then Thunder in the mountains both are great events so i hope all the extra work making toys for all the naughty girls & boys pays off as i do so enjoy seeing all my pervy friends playing with The Kink Shop toys so hope to see many of yall soon .

As all ways stay Naughty
if your going to eather of these events please give me a tweet @samantha71104

http://domconla.com/

http://www.imrl.com/index.php

Why I cry in the shower

oh the expectations rules & reasons for it all.
one can get caught up in so many of the ins & outs of daily life as so many may know mine is far from average i learned so long ago as a child to keep curtain things to myself as people are expected to act,behave or just interact with others with a thing so rarely seen Thea's days its called manners.
but all that said it just boils down to if people see me as a strong,assured person it allows me a level of protection from those that would hurt me weather it be physically or verbally so as to not allow others the knowledge that they can hurt me i only cry in the shower.

on the road to & @ Frolicon in Atlanta

Short skirts,corsets, assorted leather & pony gear & other Toy's all packed ready to head east down I-20 in the morning i hit the road about 5am.
Wednesday 4/20/2011 well made it safe & sound to the Frolicon event hotel now a evening of relaxing before the naughty fun begins tomorrow.
Thursday all set up and ready for fun we open @ 5pm in the vendor area.
Day 2 @Frolicon vending opens @ 11am - 7pm then a evening of naughty fun.ok a great day in the vendor room now for a evening of fun & debauchery........
hanging out & going to Big Mamma's Burlesque show all adds up to a great Saturday night now on with Sunday yup the last day as all ways a little sad as its almost over but still a little time for some more fun.
well the day is done it was a good event lots of friends and some really great peeps had some fun this weekend & now all the vendors are packed up & gone a few folks still around the hotel most are gone we are heading out early in the Morning .

Random thought

As I let my thoughts run over the last few days I'm once again reminded how much it hurts that i will never be the young cute pretty girl that everyone wants to etc. etc....................

on the road Houston @Spring Iniquity

headed out @ 6am the drive was nice on I-59 in Texas got to Houston about 10:30 meet a friend and had some lunch before checking into the hotel .
got all set up ready to vend we go till 9pm tonight.
Saturday way to early 8am vending opens & go's till 8pm very long day but so many friends are here its a good time.
@ the end of the day had some drinks & spent some time in the hot tub.
Sunday came way to early need caffeine.
ok the last day of vending was fun & then we took the long way home through Lafayette so we could have dinner @ Prejunes it's my fave Miss Martha & our Friend Larry from Lafayette joined us it was a grate time & then headed for home made it in about 11:30 all in all a grate weekend thanks to all who were there

NOW OFF TO Frolicon its just a grate fun fest of pervyness

this touched me a Journal Entry by a young trans person

I read this & instantly new how she feels so im posting it here as well with her permission

 

How I feel 

Journal Entry by Humble-Obedience 

silently he fades into the background wherever he roams,
going unnoticed and unseen he has grown comfortable in his solitude,
there is something soothing about a lonely walk, or a calm night while the moon shines on his lonesome face,
somewhere in the isolation he has found a true comfort, almost a friend in the darkness,
to a world within his own mind he escapes whenever he should need to,
he has lost the need and desire to associate with others, for his mind is his closest friend,
he sometimes wonders what it would be like to break free, to scream at the top of his lungs,
but he cannot, the pain has robbed him of his voice, he has lost the will to speak,
as people pass by, he stares at them, quietly evaluating them in his mind,
he sees the pain in their eyes that most do not, he sees beyond the masks they wear,
for he was once in their shoes, just another kid, following the crowd,
putting on a fake smile every morning, but then he failed to see the point,
why change himself to please others, when he was not even pleased with himself,
silently he wishes to help them, to relieve them of their burdens, but why, these are people who fail to even acknowledge him,
he cares because he wanted so badly for someone to care when the roles were reversed,
when he was the one acting like he has the perfect life everyday when inside he is broken, torn, and dead,
but he realizes he cannot help them, they have thrown him away, they do not know what they have lost,
so once again he fades into the background and waits for her to follow him into this darkness

Thoughts that I have

Thoughts feelings that seam to be on my mined a lot and last longer Depression, Anger, Resentment, but guess i will just keep on putting on my best face and smiling @ the world day after day as nobody likes a sour puss..............

P.S. no I don't want to have them just they seam to be on my mined a lot.